Every day that I am working on this movie (and that is really every day), I think about how proud I am of what we are all doing, and what we have done so far. But it is not without costs and sacrifices.
I've lost sleep, resulting in a faulty immune system. I barely have the time or energy to wash my face at night.
My health isn't the only thing that is deteriorating for this movie. I am starting to feel strain on my relationships (I know I'm not the only one). It seems like I'm always disappointing my friends, who have to make plans at least a week in advance.
My schoolwork is suffering slightly. I won't even get into my mental health.
Sometimes I get scared that if I choose to go down this road, my life will always be like this. Then I remember that unlike the professionals, we are shooting 10, 12, 15 hour days, while juggling classes, midterms, papers and projects. And then, once again, I am proud of how far we have come. Despite all of the difficulties and "opportunities" that we deal with every weekend, I would still rather be making a movie then just sitting around watching one.
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Brianne, it's our destiny!
Post the weekly progress, I'm excited to see where we're at!
If this was facebook I was say "Kelly likes this"
Everythhing in my life is deteriorating too! At least we're all in it together...
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